I have always been touched by the story of Christ praying to His Father, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do" but I have a VERY new perspective on it today.
You see I have just been through one wham-bahm boozle of a month. While I won't go into details part of the month included a life changing experience which I had recalled and reacted badly to the recollection.
I did things I don't actually remember doing.
I have had people come up to me, call me or question me about things that I did during the week after it happened that I can't remember. I have heard things that I said or wrote that I am personally turned off by.
I can't really even begin to ask forgiveness of some people who were touched by me that week. I did not know what I was doing so I don't know who I touched. Others I touched but I'm not even sure what I said. Others I ..... anyway. It just might be that I am your enemy right now and you have every right to be mad, angry or hurt AND I ask that you pray to be able to forgive me. I was crying out for help that I didn't even consciously acknowledge I needed. Instead I got a "up yours" attitude and started attacking in all directions.
I have gotten support, I have worked through the main part of the issue and I'm continuing to work through the rest. If you weren't touched by me that week, maybe just take the lesson. It could be that the person who hurts you, offends you, or cuts you off in traffic either doesn't know what they are doing or, like me, they are crying out for help and bringing negative attention to themselves is the only way their subconscious can make them find the help they need.
I will pray for my enemies in a whole new way the rest of my life.
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